Load it up

Today is loading day.  I will show the children that their stuff is well secured for the move and storage!

Packing it in

The movers are here packing up all of our stuff today.  *big sigh*

I hope everyone is sending peaceful thoughts!

A story and a wrap up…

I will be living out of suit cases and boxes for a while starting today.  So I thought I would et a few posts together because I really don’t want my blog to go unattended for so long—control issues, I know!

Anyway—I will probably not have time or access to the ‘net until I get to my mom’s on Sunday.  And I may not have the inclination to do anything on Monday so instead of doing what I should be doing right now I am going to write a few entries and postdate them.

Yesterday I mentioned how God was keeping an eye on the monsters for me.  Well, we had one of the top scared-momma situations right after I posted that.

Bubba went for a walk with some of the neighborhood kids and some parents went along.  I was listening for the kids to come back and heard the voices of the boys that Bubba had taken off with.  But no Bubba voice…so I went outside and asked if Bubba had come back with them or if he had waited with the parents.  They thought he was with them but I walked in their direction and again, no Bubba…

Bubba was lost.

It seems that he had taken off ahead of the parents with the rest of the boys but had gotten behind and turned the wrong way a couple of streets before ours.  But he was easily found because when he realized that he did not know where he was he just stood and waited for us to come find him!

I was really proud of him because I knew that at least part of the time he is listening to me!  I was also proud of myself because I did not totally panic and freak out!

When we found him he was very hot, very sad and a bit frightened but none the worse for wear.  I swear this is just one more time that God was there keeping the little monster safe!

Shaky ground

Recently with all of the unsettled feelings I have been having my faith has been a bit shaky. I have felt very poor in spirit and have really been leaning on my friends to keep me grounded spiritually. I believe that God has really been watching out for the monsters lately as their momma has been checked out.

If I can let go of the despair and resentment I am feeling then I can see that there is a method to the madness that my life has become. This is what I work toward every day. This is the solid ground that I am able to find and stand on when I give all of the worries over to God and just do the next thing in front of me.

I carry this quote around with me just about every where I go. It helps me see that things do make more sense when I slow down and work on faith and not my own will.

The fruit of silence is prayer.

The fruit of prayer is faith.

The fruit of faith is love.

The fruit of love is service.

The fruit of service is peace.

~Mother Theresa

Silent Sunday

So much to do…

Yesterday Lullibell and I took a few hours off from the insanity to have a little mother daughter time.  We took the van to be cleaned and went and got pedicures.  It was a fun break to the race we have been running lately.

On the subject of having the car cleaned—I took out all of the junk we haul around with us before I dropped off the car.  There was a full 33 gallon tub of stuff.  It was insane.  I had to put some of the stuff back in the car but for the most part why in the world does stuff accumulate in the car like that?  I believe i is because we practically live in that van.  I will not make a vow to keep the junk out of there because I can’t figure out how so much crap ends up in there!

Here is my list of stuff to get done today:

1. Sort all of the van stuff and put it in the right spot.
2. Go from room to room collecting important stuff that I don’t want the movers to pack.
3. Pack up as much as I can into the car top carrier.
4. Pick out DVDs for the car trip.
5. Take DVDS and important stuff to Elizabeth’s house.

Since tomorrow is Silent Sunday I will make Sunday’s list now:

1. Go to church (my last Sunday).
2. Pack up the box to ship to my mom.
3. Find a pair of khaki shorts for Bubba to wear to Prekindergarten graduation.

Haiku Friday

Preparing to go.

We have been here a long time.

So much to pack up.

Many friends to see.

So many tearful goodbyes.

We will miss you all.

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Monday was Lullibell’s last guitar lesson. There were tears as she said goodbye to the fabulous Mrs. Laura. Today my friend Reverend Ann and I had a prayer time during a quiet spell at work. We both wept to say goodbye in this special way. I guess I never realized how close the bonds were that we were forming here. We have been left behind so many times by so many people and now we are the ones leaving. I think there will be many more tears between now and next Saturday. Sunday is our last day at our beloved church. I am not looking forward to that goodbye. Not even a little bit.

Analysis paralysis

I got everything on my list from yesterday done except for the poster paint and stuff to decorate Flat Bubba. That will happen today. It felt good to stop thinking about things and actually do them. I know that the biggest part of my paralysis is the thinking. I need to act but I all I can do is just think. And worry.

My goals for today:

1. Get the paint.
2. Take Maverick to the groomer.
3. set up a time to pick up the car top carrier that I found yesterday.
4. take a load of the stuff that we are taking with us to Miss E’s house.
5. decorate Flat Bubba.

I suppose I should explain Flat Bubba. For the Prekindergarten graduation they are going to decorate the room with poster board renditions of each child that the families decorate. I just took to calling the cut out Bubba sized piece of paper Flat Bubba after the 1964 children’s book Flat Stanley by Jeff Brown. It is a story about a little boy who gets flattened by a cork board and travels the world by mailing himself from place to place!

Overwhelmed

Today I have that feeling that I am about to get run over by life. My friend Ccubed once gave me a book mark that says “I try to take it one day at a time but lately several days have ganged up on me.” Kind of how I feel right now.

I know that once things actually start happening I will feel better and not so paralyzed. I really wish that would make feel better about where I am right now.

So the actions I am taking today:

1. getting the box to mail a bunch of the kids stuff to my mom and dad.
2. trying to hunt down a car top carrier on craigslist
3. remembering to eat
4. get a few grocery things
5. possibly getting the stuff to make Flat Bubba for prekindergarten graduation

I think that will get me through today

Fun Day

Yesterday was fun day at Bubba’s school. There was soccer and bowling, a bean bag toss and a bounce house, Popsicles and water balloons! Check out the look of absolute joy on the boy’s face!

Fishing in the wading pool for whales and dolphins and sea monsters with his best bud-Little Miss K!

The hanger on the pinata broke so the teacher made up a game the kids called pinata baseball!

Bubba split open the back with that hit but the pinata held together until Mrs. H ripped it open after everyone had a chance to hit it!

Bubba really liked whirling the bucket to keep the water in but his favorite part was letting the water fall out on his head.

Thank you Mrs. H for the great fun day this year!